i want to be a mother

I want to have a daughter. I want to bring her up and be her best friend. I want to take her out and have her friends tell her “what a cool mum you have!”
I wont force her to be who she is not. I wont make her fulfill my unrealized dreams. I wont cramp her style. I wont make her feel second best.
I want to love her with all I’ve got. I want her to inherit all I have. I want to throw her parties, take her shopping and know her boyfriends.
I wont miss her growing up. I wont hide from her my failures and pain. I wont pretend to be a saint. I wont not allow her to make mistakes.
I want to be there when she cries and tell her it’s all right. I want to hug her when she falls and tell her take your time to stand. I want to let her know that He’s loved me through her, and pray that she will learn to love Him through me.

Haha, maternal instincts- crazy. But i guess this is my tribute to all the mummys in the world- especially mine. i know you've all tried your best to be the best you can be, and there are times i make you feel like a failure when i insist you will never understand and shut you miles away. Sorry :s
But do know that you're secretly what i aspire to be- ever giving, ever loving and ever self-sacrificing. and you are so so strong. i know your flaws and i learn from them, i know you're not perfect and i never expect you to be. i'm just contented with you being the best mummy you try to be. You prob scare some of my friends off, you prob wind me up many times over, you sometimes are the woman i wish under my breath i'd never be. But if there's ever a second chance to go "mummy-shopping", know that you're still the one i'd pick off the shelf! :p (not sure if you'd pick me though, heh) love ya, momz..

Thank you for making me wanna be a mummy too.