Welcome baby Miguel to this beautiful world!! Praying that He who made you will bring Him glory through your existence. So small and yet bringing so much hope to life. *muacks*
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Hair spray is awesome!!! Go watch if you just want 2 hours of fun being an air head. Legally blonde and loving it. *world peace*
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No one’s gonna control my day. Wateva people may say or think or do, let me enjoy it fully to my Father’s glory.* W-W-W*
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To redeem yourself from being self-righteous is to admit that you are. *kinda like the humble-humility paradox huh*
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Boston Legal is back!!! yay.. 11 pm on Wednesday evenings on 5. *Yes, they paid me a commission.*
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“Let’s waste time chasing cars around our heads… Forget what we’re told before we get too old, Show me a garden that’s bursting into life” ~ Chasing cars by Snow Patrol rocks!!!
Sunday, August 26, 2007
Friday, August 24, 2007
colleagues from hell
if you have to come in during the weekend to work, then please just come in- without making such a racket so that the whole world will know.
if you have a problem with me going home at 6pm, then leave too. don ask me everyday if I am leaving at 6 again. you should know the answer :p well if you were in my shoes, think if you would stay back. where were you when I stayed back till 12 am each night by myself. i would stay if i need to la.
if you think that I am doing nothing at my desk, go tell my boss. just because I don whine about things I am doing, and I have do slightly less things to do right now, and my counterpart may not be doing much- does not mean that I do nothing, and I don help others ok.
stop calling me “super-sub” for goodness sake. the last time I helped you- its not my job, how can you expect me to help you do your job all the time?! I am no longer part of your team. get that straight into your head, and I have a name.
I am gonna insist sticking my butt here – even if it pricks you. biting the hand that once fed you, ingrate.
if you have a problem with me going home at 6pm, then leave too. don ask me everyday if I am leaving at 6 again. you should know the answer :p well if you were in my shoes, think if you would stay back. where were you when I stayed back till 12 am each night by myself. i would stay if i need to la.
if you think that I am doing nothing at my desk, go tell my boss. just because I don whine about things I am doing, and I have do slightly less things to do right now, and my counterpart may not be doing much- does not mean that I do nothing, and I don help others ok.
stop calling me “super-sub” for goodness sake. the last time I helped you- its not my job, how can you expect me to help you do your job all the time?! I am no longer part of your team. get that straight into your head, and I have a name.
I am gonna insist sticking my butt here – even if it pricks you. biting the hand that once fed you, ingrate.
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Casting the first stone…
“Should the holiness (and excellence) of the ministry be compromised by grace?”
“Should a struggling leader be removed from leadership?”
“Should a group be disbanded for the lack of a perfect leader?”
It’s interesting how these questions have come my way again- going a full circle. My answers would have been easily black and white, and measures drastic were I much younger. But looking back at the years, my heart just swells as I revisit these questions again.
Not because I have better answers now – in fact my answers are much less satisfying theoretically speaking. But it just seems that as I grow older and older, I recognize more and more I am too young, too small, too inexperienced to take on these questions. And as He shakes my world to seem grey, He has shown me how the colors are settling to their perfect tone behind the grey scales, and blinded me with the magnificence of His artistry when the bleak blanket is finally lifted.
I have not traded passion for inaction, nor compromise absolutes, do not be mistaken. But during this season, as I think about the small group ministry, the different journeys our leaders have taken, and studying about God and his kings in DM- I have only one desire.
I yearn no more than to walk closely with Him, to feel His heart beat, to see what my Father sees when He looks upon my struggling brother, the faltering ministry, the scattered sheep. I yearn to serve Him faithfully, to re-establish His kingdom in the hearts of man, to have others know and experience His love deeply. I yearn to expose all my weaknesses that His strength be made perfect, through my failings show His will is pleasing and perfect.
I still hold fast to my theological convictions, and desire excellence for my Father’s work. But when each and every man is but still a work-in-progress, and our eyes far too short-sighted to see what the future He holds for the fellow pilgrim- who am I to cast a stone? Shall I judge the extent of the sin that can be seen, what about the adulterous heart and mind that escapes the eyes of man?
Pardon me when I seem to move to slowly or do too little, do not give up challenging me either, but please do pray for me- that I shall remain in Him and do only the things He wants me to do in His own time.
Let the love that both accept and discipline, wait and pursue, protect and refine, trust and hope be lived out in our midst. Let His holiness and grace be shown, restoration be given to the repentant one, and the flock having a shepherd given by the Lord. Let His kingdom come and will be done in you and in me.
“Should a struggling leader be removed from leadership?”
“Should a group be disbanded for the lack of a perfect leader?”
It’s interesting how these questions have come my way again- going a full circle. My answers would have been easily black and white, and measures drastic were I much younger. But looking back at the years, my heart just swells as I revisit these questions again.
Not because I have better answers now – in fact my answers are much less satisfying theoretically speaking. But it just seems that as I grow older and older, I recognize more and more I am too young, too small, too inexperienced to take on these questions. And as He shakes my world to seem grey, He has shown me how the colors are settling to their perfect tone behind the grey scales, and blinded me with the magnificence of His artistry when the bleak blanket is finally lifted.
I have not traded passion for inaction, nor compromise absolutes, do not be mistaken. But during this season, as I think about the small group ministry, the different journeys our leaders have taken, and studying about God and his kings in DM- I have only one desire.
I yearn no more than to walk closely with Him, to feel His heart beat, to see what my Father sees when He looks upon my struggling brother, the faltering ministry, the scattered sheep. I yearn to serve Him faithfully, to re-establish His kingdom in the hearts of man, to have others know and experience His love deeply. I yearn to expose all my weaknesses that His strength be made perfect, through my failings show His will is pleasing and perfect.
I still hold fast to my theological convictions, and desire excellence for my Father’s work. But when each and every man is but still a work-in-progress, and our eyes far too short-sighted to see what the future He holds for the fellow pilgrim- who am I to cast a stone? Shall I judge the extent of the sin that can be seen, what about the adulterous heart and mind that escapes the eyes of man?
Pardon me when I seem to move to slowly or do too little, do not give up challenging me either, but please do pray for me- that I shall remain in Him and do only the things He wants me to do in His own time.
Let the love that both accept and discipline, wait and pursue, protect and refine, trust and hope be lived out in our midst. Let His holiness and grace be shown, restoration be given to the repentant one, and the flock having a shepherd given by the Lord. Let His kingdom come and will be done in you and in me.
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
J.K.R (II)
JKR (I) - Joanne "Jo" Rowling, widely known as the English writer and author of the Harry Potter series. BUT, this acronym will now have a special meaning known narrowly by the chosen few...
JKR (II) - Jo (to-be) Kok's gRowlings. and so shall my pen-name be... wahahahaha... if you are JKR(I)'s fan, don let me bear your wrath- i am a newly converted Harry Potter stalker too!
As a self-confessed anti-blockbuster, counter-culture movie go-er who has avoided watching mainstream movies like Lord of the Rings, MI series, Doomsday series, Harry Potter, etc etc etc... she is on the way of repenting.. *faintz*
it's not like i have anything against these movies but somehow i just decided that i am not losing out much should i fail to watch any of these crowd-pleasers, since my weak heart cannot take too much action nor suspense; and most plots are the same anyway... so over time, i just have not caught any of these movies. and thanks to mr kok who was in town recently, i shattered my record and went into the theatres with him for "The Order of the Phoenix". And the rest history. She's definitely gonna go back in time to catch up on all that she has missed.
The girl who used to feed on cookies made by Moonface and wishing Willy Wonka was for real, who would imagine fairies amongst the flowers and being friends with pixies to fight nasty goblins under the bridge, who secretly wished she was a princess of an unknown kingdom and can wield her sword riding on her white horse, was awoken.
Days of riding the broom when doing classroom duty were reflected with jealousy as she witness those at Hogwarts take flight on their broomsticks; Miss Monika Toh & Molly Leong now seemed benevolent compared to Dolores Umbridge; and the copper sulphate solution- chemistry was as close as she got to mixing potions...
Oooo.. too much too much... Anyway, JKR (II) is gonna be at work coz she knows of the world she can make her childhood fantasies come alive. Wait and see. She's hungry for some magic, hear her gRowl...
JKR (II) - Jo (to-be) Kok's gRowlings. and so shall my pen-name be... wahahahaha... if you are JKR(I)'s fan, don let me bear your wrath- i am a newly converted Harry Potter stalker too!
As a self-confessed anti-blockbuster, counter-culture movie go-er who has avoided watching mainstream movies like Lord of the Rings, MI series, Doomsday series, Harry Potter, etc etc etc... she is on the way of repenting.. *faintz*
it's not like i have anything against these movies but somehow i just decided that i am not losing out much should i fail to watch any of these crowd-pleasers, since my weak heart cannot take too much action nor suspense; and most plots are the same anyway... so over time, i just have not caught any of these movies. and thanks to mr kok who was in town recently, i shattered my record and went into the theatres with him for "The Order of the Phoenix". And the rest history. She's definitely gonna go back in time to catch up on all that she has missed.
The girl who used to feed on cookies made by Moonface and wishing Willy Wonka was for real, who would imagine fairies amongst the flowers and being friends with pixies to fight nasty goblins under the bridge, who secretly wished she was a princess of an unknown kingdom and can wield her sword riding on her white horse, was awoken.
Days of riding the broom when doing classroom duty were reflected with jealousy as she witness those at Hogwarts take flight on their broomsticks; Miss Monika Toh & Molly Leong now seemed benevolent compared to Dolores Umbridge; and the copper sulphate solution- chemistry was as close as she got to mixing potions...
Oooo.. too much too much... Anyway, JKR (II) is gonna be at work coz she knows of the world she can make her childhood fantasies come alive. Wait and see. She's hungry for some magic, hear her gRowl...
Monday, August 06, 2007
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
1 Aug 2007, Wed
And so it happened, yesterday… My ring finger has found its owner and I guess both my finger and I ain’t the same as before :p
*my side of the story on hindsight, LONG, be warned*
Arthur was supposed to come on Friday, so I was led to believe. There I was, working hard to finish my lot of work for the week. It was tough yesterday- feeling feverish, having a cold and a deadline. To top it all up, my boyfriend had his phone “power off” and no one picked up the phone when I called his home. No one to whine to :(
*I was NOT gullible to NOT suspect anything ok… I spoke to him last night. This morning he used Skype to call my office- told me he was tired, so he slept in and want to spend the day lazing at home (when he actually landed this morning.. grrr…)*
After one whole day of failing to reach him, and two unsuccessful attempts in my car as I was driving to church for cell group in the evening, I had all my whines stored- ready to unload it on him when he finally calls at night. In my mind, i was rehearsing my lines as I drove “Couldn’t find you all day.. where were you.. booo hoo.. whine whine whine…”
*AND since there had been instances of his phone running out of credit, and thinking that he might be like me, forgetting to switch his phone on.. I didn’t think too much about him not picking up my calls.. bleah..*
So I arrived in church and uncle Ho was waiting for me in the car park.
“oops, I forgot I was supposed to have dinner with you..” I stuck out my tongue.
“why are you so late? you forgot? never mind. come, I have something to show you in the sanctuary…”
“but my cell group is waiting for me in PS, am late already…”
“very quick one… come let me hold your bag for you..” I shook my head and held on tightly to my green basket. so we were walking into the dark familiar hall- always loved it when there is no one around..
Uncle Ho stood me in front of the altar, pointed at the camera or projector or whatever that gadget is called.
“can you see the new camera?” “what camera?” “can you see the lights?” “what lights”
then the music played.. and he walked down the aisle towards me with a bunch of 12 roses in his hands…
*I don know why I cried so hard…not that hard, just harder than I expected to. well i wasn't expecting to cry AT ALL for an already expected proposal.. hehehe... I guess seeing the person you most want to see at that moment, just makes you break down a little. hehe..*
This is Renji’s favourite part. as he was approaching, I was there with my arms on my hips, “you bluff me you bluff me”.. and actually that’s all I knew to say at that time.. :p
and so he delivered what he rehearsed for ages to me.. *classified, which i made him repeat it to me this morning because my brain was guey at that time..* and I went “you bluff me” hahahaha.. anti-climax..
of course I think in the midst of it, I said “YES” :)
what made it more special was my family coming out of that control room, and knowing that they witnessed it all warmed my heart. always wanted them to be in the moment with me, especially my moo moo. and of course some dearies came by and shared the joy with us.. over chicken rice and chocolates..
*thank you so much for being there, and being part of the journey and memory. it will always stay with me*
and if you’re reading this, I know your blessings are with us too. so thanks for sharing our joy and being here with us… *hugz*
I think I need more time to let the feeling set in- its all a mixture of euphoria and seriousness, it feels vaguely like something BIG has just happened and yet the simple joy of just having him by my side again is overwhelming, and it’s a bit surreal for something to just happen overnight…
for now, I guess it’s a good time to finally share our song with you… because, YOU are special to us.
Father, please help us to continue to be a blessing and love them all..
and to xun n min, its not "it wont be if not for you..." but rather "it wont be the same without you". *hugz*
*my side of the story on hindsight, LONG, be warned*
Arthur was supposed to come on Friday, so I was led to believe. There I was, working hard to finish my lot of work for the week. It was tough yesterday- feeling feverish, having a cold and a deadline. To top it all up, my boyfriend had his phone “power off” and no one picked up the phone when I called his home. No one to whine to :(
*I was NOT gullible to NOT suspect anything ok… I spoke to him last night. This morning he used Skype to call my office- told me he was tired, so he slept in and want to spend the day lazing at home (when he actually landed this morning.. grrr…)*
After one whole day of failing to reach him, and two unsuccessful attempts in my car as I was driving to church for cell group in the evening, I had all my whines stored- ready to unload it on him when he finally calls at night. In my mind, i was rehearsing my lines as I drove “Couldn’t find you all day.. where were you.. booo hoo.. whine whine whine…”
*AND since there had been instances of his phone running out of credit, and thinking that he might be like me, forgetting to switch his phone on.. I didn’t think too much about him not picking up my calls.. bleah..*
So I arrived in church and uncle Ho was waiting for me in the car park.
“oops, I forgot I was supposed to have dinner with you..” I stuck out my tongue.
“why are you so late? you forgot? never mind. come, I have something to show you in the sanctuary…”
“but my cell group is waiting for me in PS, am late already…”
“very quick one… come let me hold your bag for you..” I shook my head and held on tightly to my green basket. so we were walking into the dark familiar hall- always loved it when there is no one around..
Uncle Ho stood me in front of the altar, pointed at the camera or projector or whatever that gadget is called.
“can you see the new camera?” “what camera?” “can you see the lights?” “what lights”
then the music played.. and he walked down the aisle towards me with a bunch of 12 roses in his hands…
*I don know why I cried so hard…not that hard, just harder than I expected to. well i wasn't expecting to cry AT ALL for an already expected proposal.. hehehe... I guess seeing the person you most want to see at that moment, just makes you break down a little. hehe..*
This is Renji’s favourite part. as he was approaching, I was there with my arms on my hips, “you bluff me you bluff me”.. and actually that’s all I knew to say at that time.. :p
and so he delivered what he rehearsed for ages to me.. *classified, which i made him repeat it to me this morning because my brain was guey at that time..* and I went “you bluff me” hahahaha.. anti-climax..
of course I think in the midst of it, I said “YES” :)
what made it more special was my family coming out of that control room, and knowing that they witnessed it all warmed my heart. always wanted them to be in the moment with me, especially my moo moo. and of course some dearies came by and shared the joy with us.. over chicken rice and chocolates..
*thank you so much for being there, and being part of the journey and memory. it will always stay with me*
and if you’re reading this, I know your blessings are with us too. so thanks for sharing our joy and being here with us… *hugz*
I think I need more time to let the feeling set in- its all a mixture of euphoria and seriousness, it feels vaguely like something BIG has just happened and yet the simple joy of just having him by my side again is overwhelming, and it’s a bit surreal for something to just happen overnight…
for now, I guess it’s a good time to finally share our song with you… because, YOU are special to us.
Father, please help us to continue to be a blessing and love them all..
and to xun n min, its not "it wont be if not for you..." but rather "it wont be the same without you". *hugz*
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