At the beginning

It has taken me a while to start sharing about my new journey here. And like I said, this is just a start. And I have chosen to start because I know you who are reading this, is someone important to me and I want you to know; and this place where I share my deepest thoughts just would not be complete if I kept this part away. And so here I am, to tell you, that yes I have met someone.

Someone who has made me feel special like no other friend ever has. Someone with whom I have a connection with, like no other in all my life. Someone who overwhelms me with God’s goodness and plan that this is happening. Someone whom I know, knows and loves me for who I am. Someone whom I cant believe I have so much to talk about with. Someone whom I love being around. Someone whom I want something to be baking in this electric oven. That someone- hey there, please meet Arthur, Arthur Kok. (And I can say with 100% certainty that he wants to know you too, so say “Hi Arthur!”)

I know there are many questions- along so many different lines. Will answer them by and by. But for now, I just want to say I know you might be concerned. Worried that I might have rushed into things, worried that I might not know what I am doing being lonely and vulnerable in a foreign land, worried for me. But what I’ll ask that if you know me, trust me. Or at least trust His work in me, that He has made me complete in Him- that I am not “using another” to feel an emotional void; that He has caused His little one to grow up a bit- that I am keeping my eyes firmly fixed on Him and waiting on Him to work this out in a way that brings Him glory; that He has taught me much on relationships and has prepared me for him, for this; that His hand is in this.

I have been for a long time been shrugging away the possibility, because it is all too crazy… But that has ironically allowed a friendship to grow and blossom naturally. (Although I know he tells a different story) But today, am just confronted by Him- that I need to quit standing at the door and to eat from His table, the banquet where He has a feast that is beyond the best feast a human mind can imagine. That I need to dare to embrace the plans that He has in store, that I need to have faith and believe in His goodness to me, that I need to look away from me to Him. So although I have made the first step without you there, but He and some loved ones were. And henceforth, would love for you to be on this journey with us too.

Sorry that this entry has been a tat self-centered piece on relationship, and there are lots more i so so want to share- about him, about the hows and whys and blahs and blahs. Not too much too soon, gotta keep you in suspense. heh.

Right now, just moving along with the rhythm of this dance, praying that I’ll have you witness His miraculous choreography and cheering us on.