Sunday, June 02, 2013

May Memories and Musings

This one’s for May.. I’m late, but you were not forgotten.

Condolences to the Robin Family
The three little ones did not make it in the end. It must have been the cold, Mama Robin was not able to keep them warm enough nor find them enough food. We heard and saw them but for a day, and they went silent. A few days later, Arthur checked inside the nest and confirmed the sad sad news. Crazy Chicago weather, you took away three birdlings!
Although it’s been a month, I’m still saddened at the thought of the mother bird losing her young ones. Perhaps they’ll reunite in heaven? God, please?

Commenting on my Belly
In case you’ve not heard, “you’re showing!” then “you’re showing so much!” “You showed so quickly”. This is accompanied by intent stares and looks and smiles at my belly. You’re a woman too, surely you can understand this is not comfortable? I responded with “Yes, I’m pregnant. Of course I’m showing, what can I do?”
And then the best one to top it all off “You look like a cylinder. So cute!” I did not know how to respond to that one.
Times like this, I seek refuge in 1 Peter 3:3-4 to focus on cultivating the gentle and quiet spirit, thankful that God seeks beauty within - even for me, Ms Roley-Poley.

Cooking for Pregnancy
One upside with this pregnancy is that it’s pushed me to try out different recipes, or rather experimenting more in the kitchen. I made my first pot of red dates and longan tea, first pot of radish soup (though I was told it’s not good for me), three cups chicken, conpoy porridge and dumpling noodle soup. This child clearly has Asian taste buds!

Contemplations on Womanhood
After finishing the Women’s study on “True Womanhood”, I am still perturbed and perplexed. It’s a pretty good material. I appreciate how it tries to deconstruct the impact of feminism on women today, and I understand that it has the modern American woman in mind. It has tried to focus on principles and emphasizing on us working out what it looks like in our individual contexts. Still, I am left with the same questions and bitter aftertastes.
The examples of women applauded were in the mold of “the missionary wife who did countless loads of laundry, cooked countless meals, played hosts to countless guests”, “the women who prayed silently and faithfully for their families and church”… I love these women and long to model after them. I also love that the church recognizes the unseen, and prizes things that this world does not. But YET, I find that much of the women material emphasizes “walking in the shadows”, at the expense of recognizing women who make a visible difference in different domains out of their commitment to Christ. It’s not really one or the other, is it?
And then there are biblical organizations that I believe in, that would not even allow men and women to be in the same Bible study, to prevent the awkward situation of women potentially correcting/ teaching men during discussions. Where is the line between correcting/ teaching/ encouraging? Ok, at least they are consistent; and not just applying things to the pulpit. But I do not believe this is a faithful application of the helper role that God gave to women!
And is it legitimate to say that because the secular workplace does not recognize God as authority, it is ok for a man to work under a female boss and for a Christian woman to be CEO of a company in those scenarios? How does one who desires to live out all of life under God’s authority; including the male-female relationship that God intends for us to have, do that in the secular workplace? Does an attitude of humility, respect, and “considering others better than yourself” suffice; such that no matter what position I am in, as long as I am not viewing another (man) in contempt, it is ok?

Convocation

Yes! I graduated! Yay!!! This deserves an entry all on it’s own, so more next time!

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