Really tired…

I am seriously wondering how much longer I can hold out
I don’t even know if I am ok or not
But I do not dare to give it serious consideration.

He has made me strong for He is my fortress
But I am tired of being strong
So tired of being the one there every time.

I wish I was as optimistic as I sound on stage
Swallowed tears and stomached the fears
The torrents still rage inside.

They do not even know they have disappointed me
And how they have worn me out
But I do not think they care.

Perhaps it was wise to just stay away
To set up that emotional barricade
Maybe next time, it will not be too late.