This is a self-indulgent piece. it may sound selfish in light of everything that’s happening in my life right now, and a little “out of the blue” since there are so many other things I can be writing about- my sister’s visit two weeks ago, Simon and Charlotte’s time with me here last week, meeting up with Chew Chern in Beijing, the ISOT Christmas party that just passed, reflections on the upcoming Christmas season, follow up thoughts on ministry, updates on situations at work… but… here I just want to remember a very significant two months and one day of my life..
yes, very quickly it’s gonna be one day short of nine weeks :p the story of us… *blush blush* nope, not gonna bore you with our story here- much more entertaining if you ask him to tell you in person hahahah, and I know he would love to oblige- at my expense.. but just want to give a short tribute to the man of my life in this precious space of mine, as I think about him…
Second to Christ, he is God’s staggering, personal goodness to me in flesh- I am blown away by how good God is to me by bringing him into my life. Can someone be so right?
He gives me the freedom to be the woman I want to be for God and for him- he “makes me feel alive”. Finally finding someone who loves me for my love for Him, and who loves me for me…
He knows and understands my thoughts in a way no one has ever- though moomoo you fulfill that yet on another level of course. Strange little habits and thoughts God has planted in us both, sweet…
He is everything I have ever hoped or dreamed of- not perfect by man’s standards definitely but perfect for me.
And I love him- in all his insecurities, in all his fumblings, in all his whimsicals, in all his insensitivities, in all his failings, in all his whining…
And very tacky but “I love him for the man he is, I love him for the man he wants to be, I love him for the man he almost is, I love him, I do”
Perhaps too strong a language for just two months, perhaps you might dismiss this as honeymoon candy, perhaps you think I’m crazy and treading on thin ice here with my heart again... it’s ok :p
I never thought I’d dare to give my heart again to someone I could lose- but He made me so. Don worry about me being in la-la land with the above professions. I say what I said in full view of storms that might potentially brew in the future, I say that with my feet firmly on the ground, I say that with knees knuckled- in gratitude and in total dependence on Him to bring us through. I say that in faith of our Daddy's goodness- that He is the one who brought us together, and He will have His perfect will be done...
And in light of man’s inability to see or control the future, I can say with absolute confidence that no matter what happens, he and us is His gift for this daughter of His. A gift that is good, a gift that has touched and changed my life forever, a gift that is precious and treasured. A gift that will resound in eternity, even though I may possess it only for a while on earth- but I hope and pray it’ll be for all my while on this journey here.
Hey dear,
Thank you for being who you are,
Thank you for spotting me from afar.
Thank you for being in my life,
Thank you for your love that makes me come alive.
So sorry this season has been so busy for you and I have so doubled the clutter… thank you for giving me space in your world.
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